You Got This: All You Can Do Is What You Can
If I’m being totally honest, I have to say it is extremely tough coming up with content to post these days. Like, I don’t want to be insensitive to the movement by going on with the norm. I want my black voice to be amplified especially in these moments. I do have so much to say, but I can’t always put that into words, My brain is overworked. I am trying to simply survive the day. Everyday I am hearing a new name with almost the same story. My heart hurts, my mind wanders, my thoughts are constantly being transported to the injustices we as black people are still facing all these years later. I often can not mouth the words that I feel. I am everything and nothing at all, at the same time. Not saying that I’ve just started to feel this way. But, somehow these feelings have hijacked me as of late. I guess it’s seeing it all. You know we have a way of hearing about things and feeling sympathy, but it’s different when you have a first hand look. It messes with you. It makes you live on another level. It makes you pray on another level. It makes you think…. think… I do way too much thinking. My thinking is in overload and because of all my thinking I can’t form “content.’
My hero complex wants me to do it all. Say all the right words, make the blogpost, but my mind is saying Girl bye. I want to be the encourager, the go to, the YOU GOT THIS GIRL, but this girl is tired. And guess what it’s okay to not be okay! Functioning on this level is extremely exhausting and I’d be lying if I said anything other than that. So what I am going to encourage you to do is, do what you can, that’s it. Saying YOU GOT THIS doesn’t always mean to infinity and beyond, sometimes it means “ girl, all you can handle right now is this, and you got this.” Don’t be intimated by the way others are showing up in these moments. You may be like me and all you have is all you have and Sis I’m here to tell you that YOU GOT THIS! If this is simply getting out of the bed, you got it. If this is only publishing one post this week, you got it. If this is simply praying for strength, you got this. Sis, you got this doesn’t mean you have to be every woman. We can’t all save the world, but we can all play our part in doing so. So Sis show up the best way you know how and remember YOU GOT THIS! And I am taking my own advice.
