Big Steppa
The walls have been closing in and it seems like I've been doing everything in my power to escape, but sometimes I feel like I’m not gonna make it out. It's like I'm stuck in a time warp and I'm watching life play out without me. Like on tv, when the ghost of present, past and future visit you. Transparent moment: sometimes I want that to be my reality. I've been depressed for a little while now and every time I feel like I can finally breathe, something comes and robs me out of that air. As always God is never absent through my struggles. I feel like He allows me to go through the struggle my way, but now He's like,” enough girl, it’s time to get up and remember who you are.”
The past few months have felt like a roller coaster ride. I've been up and down, up and down and even though I'm repeating this ride, I never anticipate the motions. God crept into my thoughts this morning and yelled at me. Usually He whispers, but this time He was LOUD! See I've been sitting back watching everyone else take huge steps in big directions and I've been feeling a little sorry for myself. Like why isn't it happening for me. I've never been a hater, so I still clap it up when I see my people, hell even strangers winning. I love to see people succeed. It kinda makes me want to go harder for what I want, but it seems like I’m creeping by and everyone else is a BIG STEPPA! God reminded me that even though I’m creepin,' I'm still moving forward and that’s what matters most. He told me that I can't get caught up in the victories of everybody else. Be happy for them, but don’t compare their journey to yours. You have no idea the steps they have taken to get to where they are. Somebody may have taken an Uber to the finish line. God reminded me that little steps lead to big dreams. So, whether your just jumping off the porch or slowly stepping into your dreams, forward progress is being made. As long as you are moving forward, you’re good boo. Place your hand in God's hand and step on. Every step counts. Comparing yourself to others is stealing your joy and bringing you into a dark place where you might feel LIKE YOU'RE NOT MOVING AT ALL. When actually you are exactly where you are supposed to be. Focus! Get ya mind right Sis and remember even little steps lead to BIG dreams so keep going!
You will have days where you feel stuck in place. Don’t trip, that is apart of the journey. Just keep it moving. Listen for God’s approval in everything you do and you’ll be just fine. Your walk won’t look like theirs, because your path is different. I don’t care if you are doing a little right foot creep or an electric slide, YOU GOT THIS! Now get to steppin- in my Martin voice!
