Unsaid
Over the weekend I got some terrible news. I got a call and it shook my soul. The person on the other end of the phone uttered the words that one of our classmates had passed away. When I first heard those words I have to admit, I didn't quite comprehend what was going on completely. How and why immediately flooded my mind. It was the same feeling that invaded my heart when I heard about Kobe and GiGi came rushing back in.
I graduated from highschool in 2005 and my class was very close. Although I don't have a direct relationship with a lot of people from my class, I still think of us as being pretty close. This classmate in particular was really good friends with my husband and to hear of him leaving this earth was a total shock. I know we never know when our time will be, but some people you imagine will be here forever. And he was definitely one of those people. Never did I imagine hearing those words.
After my mom passed 7 years ago, I started to deal with death differently. I felt like God took the closest person to me so, so what if you just loss an aunt or cousin. I know that’s terrible, but that's how I felt. As I began to grow experiences with death changed for me. I developed an empathy that was void before. And everytime I hear of someone dying a piece of me breaks internally.
The thought that I could be next crosses my mind often. These thoughts bring to mind how short life actually is. The bible even tells us that life is but a vapor. (James 4:14) With this being true, I’ve come to grips that I have to let go of some things. Too often pride and anger controls our lives and we never get to say the things we have stashed in our hearts. Let's make it our business to reach out more to those we love, even through rough patches. Let's say how we feel. Let's forgive and apologize, while we still have time to. Like the bible says life is but a vapor it appears for a littke time and then vanishes away. Hug your loved ones. Tell them how you feel. Say the things that you have been hiding in your heart. Get it off your chest because you never know when that chance to release it will be taken away from you.
After my mom died, I was torn apart. Although we had a beautiful relationship there are still things I wish I would have told her while she was here. After hearing of my classmate’s passing, I wish I would have reached out more to him as well. But, we always think about these things when it's too late. And then we have to live with it. Don't let too late be your reality. Release your love into the atmosphere, you never know who it’ll affect. I’m making it my business to leave nothing unsaid.
